well, no matter how bad it is, you don't kill yourself if there isn't an underlying problem, and you can't blame cruelty for that

Dear everybody who said that, maybe you need to wake up and actually be bullied just for being yourself. Although, actually, I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy because it's completely awful, and I'm only just realising now that I should have reported what happened to me to my tutor and probably to the police. 17 years later.