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So I had this fucked up dream last night that I thought would seem funnier later. Um, it doesn't. It's actually all I could think about all day. For those of you who read it, and don't know my ex- the depths of my disturbance about it probably make a lot less sense, but it's just had my skin crawling all day.

A lot of it had to do with the rights to stories. A lot of it also had to do with the idea that sometimes people take offense when they're not offended solely to gain political advantage. And that people often want it both ways in the name of confusion to the enemy. And that sometimes people refuse to acnowledge who you are, if you're not who they want you to be.

( Let me take a moment to explain a particular dynamic with my ex- and I )

At any rate, the dream is perfectly clear in its issues to me, every detail every bit of casting makes perfect sense. But dear god. What strikes me so strongly though is the line "I went looking, because you kept raising the stakes." As awful as the dream was, to me this moment implies that I've always had a lot of power I've often been unaware of, and that underestimation of myself makes trouble as much as anything else.

Anyway, horrid thing, but I'm glad I had it.

The damn stage combat people haven't called me back yet. The travel situation is massive amounts of wacked out logistical stress and the pattern for my Regency dress came. It looks very simple, and I may well wind up with more than one. 'Cause I can. I'm really having problems with a color scheme for the formal one though.

Tonight: MI-5 and/or Love Actually and the Jack & Bobby premier is running again.

Tomorrow: Passport. And then... Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow.

a letter to the editor in Time Magazine

In the current issue of Time in response to an articule about tactices of conservative student activists on college campuses:

http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1101040920-695855-2,00.html

I am originally from Iran, and I always thought that one of the reasons my country went downhill was that, before the revolution, the majority of Iranians were virtually illiterate and easily manipulated. I thought education would allow people to reason for themselves and be less susceptible to opportunistic movements. To read that students in some of the U.S.'s best universities support gay bashing and opposition to affirmative action and abortion rights completely shatters that illusion.
MEY KHALILI
Ithaca, N.Y.

dumb thing

I have to put my occupation on the passport form.

I will hate myself if I don't put actor, but I'm not sure if I should.

ETA: Okay, this is dumb. I make very little of my income acting right now. I'll put marketing consultant or wwhatever the hell, and just get the passport ammended when I'm a fabulous international star.