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it's all in the muffins
While baking corn muffins and listening to opera very very loudly, I came to the sudden conclusion that Atlantic is not where I need to be right now. Big fucking surprise, I know. But the fact is, right now, the technique plays to my strengths as opposed to helping me with my weaknesses and allows me to stay far too protected and in control. So I'm registering for some stuff at HB for June that terrifies me, but should shake me out of my nonsense, while I figure out where I'm supposed to be.
I've been all into "but Atlantic's prestigious" because people react to it really well, but that doesn't mean shit if it's not helping me not just improve my work, but get over some hurdles. And it's certainly not the technique that's most compatible with the type of work I want to be doing now. There's also the minor fact that the most amazing performance I've ever done came in an Atlantic class, where I didn't follow the rules of the as if at all, and instead used an emotional touchstone from my past -- so what does that tell you? Exactly.
I was worried this would feel like a negative decision, and that's why I avoided making it for so long. But I feel great.
Right now I'm looking at Physical Storytelling (using styles like Kabuki and Comedia D'ell Arte to explore movement in theater) and Technique I (which is lots of improve crap designed to get you past self-consciousness -- which is what I need -- I can analyze a scene and develop a character, I just need to learn to get past my shit). They also have a directing class and a ton of speech classes. I'll wait another term before I touch directing (at least in classes there -- I want to see if a place works for me first) -- and I think I'll go for Technique I and a Speech class actually -- just because I'm starting up yoga right now, and want to get into that physical routine first.
Oh, this is a huge relief. And bringing headshots into the retoucher on Monday. My humanity and hope has returned.
I've been all into "but Atlantic's prestigious" because people react to it really well, but that doesn't mean shit if it's not helping me not just improve my work, but get over some hurdles. And it's certainly not the technique that's most compatible with the type of work I want to be doing now. There's also the minor fact that the most amazing performance I've ever done came in an Atlantic class, where I didn't follow the rules of the as if at all, and instead used an emotional touchstone from my past -- so what does that tell you? Exactly.
I was worried this would feel like a negative decision, and that's why I avoided making it for so long. But I feel great.
Right now I'm looking at Physical Storytelling (using styles like Kabuki and Comedia D'ell Arte to explore movement in theater) and Technique I (which is lots of improve crap designed to get you past self-consciousness -- which is what I need -- I can analyze a scene and develop a character, I just need to learn to get past my shit). They also have a directing class and a ton of speech classes. I'll wait another term before I touch directing (at least in classes there -- I want to see if a place works for me first) -- and I think I'll go for Technique I and a Speech class actually -- just because I'm starting up yoga right now, and want to get into that physical routine first.
Oh, this is a huge relief. And bringing headshots into the retoucher on Monday. My humanity and hope has returned.