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Sep. 13th, 2003 12:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rmI have resolved the earlier situation of stess in a way that is not ideal and will probably lead to more stress later, but I can for the moment function. Unfortunately I have so much residual stress going on that I have no ability to work on the writing I want to be doing, or the writing I should be doing. This is frustrating.
I got the sides for my Tuesday audition. They are... amusing. And not in a bad way, just, another case of the universe giggling at me -- one of them is a rant about how the character gave up Judaism because she and her husband decided amour was their religion.
I'm sorry I do these things... just the venting does actually really help me. I know I'm supposed to be cultivating an air of mystery and competance, but that's not really who I am. Plus I think I cultivate that air unintentionally, a lot, actually.
I have a hard time being unique in a lot of ways -- because I'm such a chameleon who takes great pleasure from being a mimic and really learned to be one for personal preservation purposes. It makes me very strange, and I think unlike a lot of other people with similar tendencies, in that I do reveal myself constantly, as opposed to not at all. Although yes, I suppose, I am the queen of misdirection.
I got the sides for my Tuesday audition. They are... amusing. And not in a bad way, just, another case of the universe giggling at me -- one of them is a rant about how the character gave up Judaism because she and her husband decided amour was their religion.
I'm sorry I do these things... just the venting does actually really help me. I know I'm supposed to be cultivating an air of mystery and competance, but that's not really who I am. Plus I think I cultivate that air unintentionally, a lot, actually.
I have a hard time being unique in a lot of ways -- because I'm such a chameleon who takes great pleasure from being a mimic and really learned to be one for personal preservation purposes. It makes me very strange, and I think unlike a lot of other people with similar tendencies, in that I do reveal myself constantly, as opposed to not at all. Although yes, I suppose, I am the queen of misdirection.
