rm | pep talk

You go to fencing because that's what you do. It has nothing to do with whether you feel like it or if you want to or if you're planning to enjoy it (and seriously, were you under the delusion that we do this for fun?). Those are, at least theoretically and in general company, all over-arching true things regardless of whether you feel like being entirely lazy right now. So get over it and drag your ass there already. It's only two bloody hours tonight anyway, and you don't even have to talk to anyone since you'll just be working on a target with the saber.

Graaah.

(yeah, that's exactly what the internal landscape sounds like, especially when I'm being lazy).