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It's past 2am and I just got home from opera rehearsal.
If I were the sort of person to dedicate myself to any one thing, in a pure and simple way, it would be opera. At least it feels that way right now. I've just never had an experience like I did today, working hard on the stage doing some wiring stuff, listening to our musicians play (we have a harpsichord!) and our wonderful singers, half in costume and half in mundane clothes work with them. It was just so soothing, and right and I mean, come on -- opera -- they're all always about monsters, stalkers and/or dead girls. It's just so great. Also, the death scenes. Oh My God. Love love love.
I'm also up for a serious, full-time, well paid SM position. So we'll see what happens. Fingers crossed. Good thoughts always welcome.
And, picked up Sands of Ammon -- blew through 40 pages during down-time today. Am increasingly disturbed by it. As a young child, I had something of a crush on Alexander. As a late teen I made an immense nuisance of myself at my University by doing a controversial paper on him, that in retrospect was probably about antagonizing people as much as anything else. Right now, I'm having a very role model sort of thing going on. Interestingly, less for the ambition than for the odd combination of hedonism and asceticism in his life. It's a trait in mine I've not often found cause to recognize elsewhere.
Okay, the screen is waving about in front of my eyes, I'm going to get some rest.
If I were the sort of person to dedicate myself to any one thing, in a pure and simple way, it would be opera. At least it feels that way right now. I've just never had an experience like I did today, working hard on the stage doing some wiring stuff, listening to our musicians play (we have a harpsichord!) and our wonderful singers, half in costume and half in mundane clothes work with them. It was just so soothing, and right and I mean, come on -- opera -- they're all always about monsters, stalkers and/or dead girls. It's just so great. Also, the death scenes. Oh My God. Love love love.
I'm also up for a serious, full-time, well paid SM position. So we'll see what happens. Fingers crossed. Good thoughts always welcome.
And, picked up Sands of Ammon -- blew through 40 pages during down-time today. Am increasingly disturbed by it. As a young child, I had something of a crush on Alexander. As a late teen I made an immense nuisance of myself at my University by doing a controversial paper on him, that in retrospect was probably about antagonizing people as much as anything else. Right now, I'm having a very role model sort of thing going on. Interestingly, less for the ambition than for the odd combination of hedonism and asceticism in his life. It's a trait in mine I've not often found cause to recognize elsewhere.
Okay, the screen is waving about in front of my eyes, I'm going to get some rest.
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Wrt the quote about Alexander - I dearly hope you do not take this wrong, but you also have managed to create a similar (albeit smaller) mythic aura about yourself and your life - a rare and precious achievement in these overly-mundane times.
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I lie awake at night worrying it's not big enough.
Really.
And I wonder why I drive people bugfuck, ya know?