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Well, A&G is now done and over, and I am show-free at the moment. I'm not freaking out, yet, but I'm sure I'll feel ridiculously at lose ends soon. This is a good thing, as it means I will get other things done. Just stopped myself from applying for another SMing job because it wasn't something that was well paid and it wasn't something that excited me, and I could use that time for auditions and classes and other projects. And now that I have the headshots, it's the sort of thing one must just get on with. Must find monologues I don't hate. Must find monologues other people don't hate. Must find a way to reveal myself as opposed to struggle through.

Lots of people I know came out to see A&G which was really nice, even if I felt somewhat awkward about it, because it was such a peculiarly personal and whimsical endeavor for me to be participating in. It was one of those late night decisions, when I applied for the gig, and like many decisions I've made, came from something somewhat silly, and turned into something really pure and simple. So it's been a journey, and one I believe in, not just as mattering to me now, but perhaps mattering to me later in ways that remain to be entirely seen.