And I feel sure, that nothing, NOTHING could feel the way Day 5 felt, in part because of how I relate to Jack and in part of how exhausting that week of viewing was, but I'm like "don't do this shit to me, Angel" because I was fine with it for CoE, largely because of my interest in personal ordeal (as opposed to structural choices the show actually made), but I'm not ready for this. Because trying not to relate to Wesley? Takes more effort than I would like.