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Jun. 12th, 2003 09:46 amI wrote this thing yesterday that I sooooo don't know what to do with. Because on one hand, it's pretty honest and raw and decently pretty about it, and on the other hand, it's emotional in a way that I'm somewhat embarassed of, and as such the post has been vascillating between friends and public, cut tag and not since last night. Odds are, I'll eventually make it private. I'm glad I wrote it, but it was certainly in the category of not necessarily necessary, but I'm not sure that's a good measuring stick, or more importantly that any of it really matters at all.
That said, I'm feeling fairly better today, even if swamp-like conditions have decended upon NYC, just in time for me to spend days outside. Truthfully, I'm slightly concerned about my ability to get through this weekend, as I'll be lucky to get more than five hours of sleep a night, as I don't necessarily do well in weather like this. That said, I'm preparing -- I bought a lunch pack to bring snacks with me each day so I don't spend a fortune by being in midtown, and small bottles of water to freeze and keep me cool. And as much as I'm all "I am too old for this shit" -- it's a good small test of my ability to physically rise to the occassion, which matters in my plans for the universe a lot more than it used to. Forget whether there was any flair or style to being a swooning maid... now it's simply inconvenient at best.
Off to deal with freelance work now. Have to catch up with Backstage when I get home (I so couldn't cope last night although I did check to make sure there was nothing I had to deal with urgently) and then make snacks for adventures with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
ladyjaida tomorrow. And then really really really work on the current Doorknobs and Bodypaint, because I keep putting it off, even when I have a character voice in my head right now that's perfect for one of this month's contests.
That said, I'm feeling fairly better today, even if swamp-like conditions have decended upon NYC, just in time for me to spend days outside. Truthfully, I'm slightly concerned about my ability to get through this weekend, as I'll be lucky to get more than five hours of sleep a night, as I don't necessarily do well in weather like this. That said, I'm preparing -- I bought a lunch pack to bring snacks with me each day so I don't spend a fortune by being in midtown, and small bottles of water to freeze and keep me cool. And as much as I'm all "I am too old for this shit" -- it's a good small test of my ability to physically rise to the occassion, which matters in my plans for the universe a lot more than it used to. Forget whether there was any flair or style to being a swooning maid... now it's simply inconvenient at best.
Off to deal with freelance work now. Have to catch up with Backstage when I get home (I so couldn't cope last night although I did check to make sure there was nothing I had to deal with urgently) and then make snacks for adventures with
ladyjaida tomorrow. And then really really really work on the current Doorknobs and Bodypaint, because I keep putting it off, even when I have a character voice in my head right now that's perfect for one of this month's contests.
