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Oh Jesus. It's awful and it's not over?

Despite the fact that it seems that Kerry really didn't win, I am glad he did not conceed yet, just in case irregularities or the absentee ballots make it happen.

I think, over the last several weeks, I watched the polls and saw them drifting towards Kerry and said to myself the number one thing I know about polls is that people lie, that people say they will vote for the incumbent when they won't because people are squeamish especially in serious times to say they disagree with the incumbent, especially in states with a different cultural makeup than mine. I believed, watching the polls, that the shift and momentum was greater than what I thought.

I called a known trend in the wrong direction. It seems that instead people got into the voting booth and decided we live in a grim new world, where hope and change are dangerous, thought about how they feel down in places not discussed in polite company and realized they were more affraid of faggots and brown people than they were worried about their jobs, their mortgages, and their debt-based competition with their neighbors and voted for Bush.

I know soon we're supposed to compassionate, and do what we can to reunite America, blah blah blah, it's just politics and it's just four more years. But I don't think it's possible for a Bush voter to give me an answer about their voting choice, no matter how detailed and reasoned, that I wouldn't classify as stupid, hateful and/or cowardly. Maybe we're all bigots. Maybe no one cares anymore.

But if you know me at all there's only even one of those three categories I can abide even slightly.

Meanwhile caput_aerus made me cry.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/caput_aerus/183869.html?mode=reply

And I've spent the last twenty-four hours with this creepy Nick Cave song stuck in my head:
( Fable of the Brown Ape )

P.S. -- Foreign friends, don't offer me couch space and all that today. I appreciate your compassion and political sympathies, but it's like how if you're not related to me you really shouldn't talk trash about my family, even if I agree with you. At least today.

P.P.S -- springheel_jack echoing the sentiments of many. Maybe we're just wrong. Maybe we aren't listening hard enough. Maybe we just don't understand. http://www.livejournal.com/users/springheel_jack/881452.html?style=mine

P.P.P.S. -- in four years, we get to look forward to a Democratic primary where John Edwards and Barak Obama will rip each other apart while everyone tries to pretend the issue isn't really about how ready Red states are for a Black president while Al Sharpton hangs about in the background muttering about racial credibility. It's going to be awful and weird.

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A lot of people on the subway were crying, and clutched crumpled newspapers to their chests and stared at people defiantly, daring them to say anything at all.

And I was reading a novel about a war, and felt like such a jackass.

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I feel like we all need to remember to breathe, because no matter what our plans now from activism to emigration, it can't really be acheived without an oxygenized brain. So let's all take the time we need to mourn, rest and recover, and then let's just get on with it. Because panic doesn't help, thorough consideration of the possibilities (no matter how panic-inducing) does.

On the plus side, Regency House begins tonight on PBS.

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While starting and mantaining an LJ community for any interest is probably asking for Internet aggravation of the most classic kind -- in an effort to find more people into the current whim of the moment, learn more about the other events out there, and generally just foster some sort of community (I'm used to SCA people, who are just _everywhere_), I've started regency_reenact. Come, be geeky with me. Because it's very sad when the only member of a community is its maintainer.

I will face the grim process of dealing with LJ promo communities tomorrow. It's too wretched to look at right now. Also, I'm tired.

And, Regency House? Owns me.