Keith's departure from Project Runway was weird. I expected it to be more dramatic. At the same time, I found it to be so low-level pervasively creepy. His almost-tears, the "everyone will mock me and my career is ruined" speech -- compare and contrast with Malan, if you will. That coupled with other people's comments and his own statement that he broke the rules _and_ that was in the right -- it was all so bizarre to me. Sociopathic really. At a given point, the best way to manipulate a system you couldn't beat is to own up to your bad behavior.
Does anyone have a good picture of Tim Gunn with the tiny dogs? There's an icon I want to make.
The heat here is unbareable. It has to end tonight, because I don't feel like I can do another minute of it.
So, I'm thinking I should go to one of the HP cons next year. I know there are three -- one in the UK, one in New Orleans and one in Toronto. I don't even know the dates (or even the names of all of them). Anyone know the websites for them? Anyone going to any of them? In a way New Orleans would be the safest bet, largely because I wouldn't have exchange rate drama. Toronto would probably be high on the cheap and easy list. The benefits (and downsides) of the UK speak for themselves. Feed me info kids.
I wish my heart were more open than it is right now. Which is interesting -- this is not the sort of impatience I generally have with myself. I'm working on all this weird writing right now about the nature of love, and if it weren't, literally, 110 degrees at my computer some of it might be getting done. One is this HP fic thing that has this extended metaphor involving alchemy about the nature of love that I could be done with now if I wanted to just do a good job, but I want it to be astounding, and astounding is eluding me. Another is the ongoing orig-fic project that I just had a revelation about -- the scope of it in terms of what it is versus what it seems to be refuses to stop flooring me apparently. Then there's the short fic that has required all this mortician research. Of course, I may be writing that only for the sake a particularly apalling piece of dialogue regarding an unfortunately named corgie.
Finally, I'm really getting the urge to start choreographing again. Not just the stuff I've been screwing around in my head with for Descensus. Hrrr. This is one of those things I don't really know how to go about, but that's not really stopped me before. I think, aside from the fact I have things to say that can only be said with movement, there's a benefit in terms of my self in working with flesh that can do the things mine cannot. Humility is important to me in strange ways. Dance is one of them.
Also, Scottish play audition on Monday.