When one of my characters informs me that the name I had settled on for him is not, in fact, his name and acutally tells me what it really is instead of being a petulant little shit.
Mar. 20th, 2007
someone speak sense to me
Mar. 20th, 2007 11:29 pmI have a cold and I feel like crap. Because this is the first time I've ben sick since I stopped eating gluten and it's been a long time (for a change) since I've been sick, it's sort of wigging me out. I've forgotten what it feels like to feel like crap and I'm miserable and achey (which layered over the day to day achiness that fencing brings is quite a bit).
Here is the dilemma:
Worldview #1 says that if I'm well enough to leave the apartment tomorrow I must go to fencing. After all, one can't say "I can't duel today, I have a cold." Also, more comprehensibly to people who aren't me -- shit happens, and if I am intending to be competing a year from now, learning to do this even if I feel like shit (jetlag!) is not unreasonable.
Worldview #2 says "For the love of god, you feel like crap. Sleep!"
I won't make the decision until tomorrow of course, perhaps not even until late in the day. Not sure if I'm looking for permission to take a day off or permission to push myself even harder than usual. Do know I'll be physically restless and irritated the rest of the week without class tomorrow though, even if I do feel like crap.
Here is the dilemma:
Worldview #1 says that if I'm well enough to leave the apartment tomorrow I must go to fencing. After all, one can't say "I can't duel today, I have a cold." Also, more comprehensibly to people who aren't me -- shit happens, and if I am intending to be competing a year from now, learning to do this even if I feel like shit (jetlag!) is not unreasonable.
Worldview #2 says "For the love of god, you feel like crap. Sleep!"
I won't make the decision until tomorrow of course, perhaps not even until late in the day. Not sure if I'm looking for permission to take a day off or permission to push myself even harder than usual. Do know I'll be physically restless and irritated the rest of the week without class tomorrow though, even if I do feel like crap.