Thank you. I really appeciate this. I was born and raised in Brooklyn and Manhattan and the City will always be tied to my heart intensely. My heart always aches for days before and after this "anniversary" now that I live in Maryland (except I'd still be living on Long Island were it not for the love of my life living in Maryland).
I have a few friends who were living in Manhattan in 2001 and who have severe PTSD from that day. I get it, I really do, but... they don't live there anymore and they didn't lose anyone close to them. They weren't born in New York. Maybe that makes me seem cold and callous, because PTSD can't be helped, it just happens. But... well, I hope you know what I mean. How much should we really grieve anymore? How much should we panic every year on that day? I may wake up tomorrow in a panic attack mentally reaching out to the city, but I can't spend the entire day hiding and sobbing. The scar in my heart is just that, a scar. I can't keep poking at it every year...
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I have a few friends who were living in Manhattan in 2001 and who have severe PTSD from that day. I get it, I really do, but... they don't live there anymore and they didn't lose anyone close to them. They weren't born in New York. Maybe that makes me seem cold and callous, because PTSD can't be helped, it just happens. But... well, I hope you know what I mean. How much should we really grieve anymore? How much should we panic every year on that day? I may wake up tomorrow in a panic attack mentally reaching out to the city, but I can't spend the entire day hiding and sobbing. The scar in my heart is just that, a scar. I can't keep poking at it every year...
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