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woo!
So my riding instructor just called me, and wanted to say hi before we started on Sunday and asked me to get there twenty minutes early so she can give me some on the ground instruction first without taking time away from my being on the horse and we talked about getting me up to speed with some of her other beginning students so I could do semi-private or group lessons later so I could spend less money and keep up with it.
My nerves are so soothed.
I think... my theory of my weird ideas is proving out again. This idea was niggling around at me, for reasons most patently absurd, and then this crap happened with the show, and now here's this really challenging, scary thing for me to do that has a degree of personal meaning that soothes the ache... or something. I dunno. It feels like some good symmetry.
Relevant only in my mind, but something I've been meaning to write about -- about a week ago I mentioned in passing to my mother that I was working out, and she said, "why?" And it realy peeved me. Why bloody not? But it totally alarmed her. "You're a girl, you're thin, you don't need to do that." It occurs to me I have a family that does not live in their bodies, and have tried to get me to be quite the same, when, I'm not really like that at all -- just sorely out of practice and a bit behind. Bah. Also, I'm 31-years-old, think mom could stop being excited I have a figure, _finally_, soon? Blech.
My nerves are so soothed.
I think... my theory of my weird ideas is proving out again. This idea was niggling around at me, for reasons most patently absurd, and then this crap happened with the show, and now here's this really challenging, scary thing for me to do that has a degree of personal meaning that soothes the ache... or something. I dunno. It feels like some good symmetry.
Relevant only in my mind, but something I've been meaning to write about -- about a week ago I mentioned in passing to my mother that I was working out, and she said, "why?" And it realy peeved me. Why bloody not? But it totally alarmed her. "You're a girl, you're thin, you don't need to do that." It occurs to me I have a family that does not live in their bodies, and have tried to get me to be quite the same, when, I'm not really like that at all -- just sorely out of practice and a bit behind. Bah. Also, I'm 31-years-old, think mom could stop being excited I have a figure, _finally_, soon? Blech.
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Also, as an aside... I live in NYC... so yeah I do a lot of stage... but what I want to do, what I lose sleep over, what I ache about is film. Which from my limited dealings with it, is increasingly striking me as even more gruelling, abelit in a very different way.
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He wrote his own bible huh? Hmmm... that is a bit odd.
You've been on film sets as much as I have, so you probably know that it's grueling in the sense of just having to BE there and stay awake for 14 hours and do it again and again and again until the Director likes it. I guess it takes stamina in that sense, so working out will help with that.
I remember Al pacino saying that he LIVED for the stage because he viewed film as nothing more than a series of filmed rehearsals and the Director just kept the best one. But I'm with you.. I'd love to do film too. I'll stay with stage forever (off and on for twenty years now) but man I'd love to get a good break here in LA and do some camera work. I don't by any means want to be a star, I'd just like to be a working Actor and pay the bills as such. A lofty goal in itself around here. Some of my heroes are the Actors that you see pop up EVERYWHERE, but nobody knows their names.. Stephen Tobolowsky, Mark Ruffalo, etc.
I did background on "Garfield: The Movie" and met Stephen Tobolowsky on the set. He told me a funny story- it seems that he's best remembered for his portrayal of the annoying insurance salesman, Ned Ryerson, in "Groundhog Day". Although he's done tons of character work in films, he seems to always get recognized in public for that role alone. He doesn't mind it, but he said that stage is his first love and he NEVER gets any recognition outside of theatrical circles for any of his work, except for one time..
He was in a supermarket in Studio City and had just paid and checked out with his groceries. A lady who had been in line behind him and had been staring at him the whole time approached him while he was loading the groceries into his car. She said, "I thought so.. it IS you! Oh my goodness!" Stephen assumed that this would be another compliment on his stint in Groundhog Day and braced himself for it, determined to be polite even though he was sick to death of hearing it. But no, she started in on some stage role he had done in Westwood Village a YEAR earlier.. she told him that she had loved his performance and that it was so compelling that she remembered it vividly. She even asked for his autograph. Stephen obliged her and laughingly said, "Wow I thought you had recognized me from Groundhog Day or something like that", to which she replied, "Oh.. do you do film too?"
By the way, I'm not one to talk.. I'm not in a workout routine right now, but wish I was. It's just that my schedule so thoroughly sucks right now, but it's getting changed this week for the better. I'm going to start making some plans in a week or so and set some goals.. better health is certainly going to be in there somewhere.
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Seriously though, one of the reasons I like film is because I have really good muscle memory from being a dancer, and if it's a matter of doing the same exact thing twice, at least physically, it's relatively easy for me to do that.
And Mark Ruffalo is amazing, and I think is someone who is going to eventually emerge from that weird zone that successful character actors wind up in.
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Horses = good.