rm | creative stuff on my radar

Trailer for Closer: http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/closer/video/closer_trailer_high.asx
This is like the movie I don't want to be excited about or interested in, on any level. Because first, it's the sort of thing that could, and maybe even should, suck, and won't because it's Mike Nichols and a good cast. So smarter, and more stylish than it deserves to be right off the bat. Secondly, every time I've seen the trailer, aside from being blown away by a couple of lines in it, I flash back very strongly to a conversation Michael and I once had in a sushi bar, about how much love he had to go around but not in any unfucked up poly sense of the word. But in a, he was incompetant and I should accept that with all my love and generosity because he was like Bill fucking Clinton. As the film says, if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking. See the little twist of my lips right now? Yeah. My lot in life may be many things, but it's not to be patient with the really crass and boring foibles of other people. Sexual fidelity doesn't hold much fascination for me other than as a creative device, but how people express their need for change, how they treat the things they are weary of, and the degree to which they can see a value in something even if it doesn't have a specific value for them -- these are measures of good grace and respect, and that's surely something I wish I had known sooner.

Anyway... Meanwhile... Mists of Avalon -- I'm on page 160, and I don't remember hating Every. Single. Character. from the first time I read it. Igraine is a hateful, shallow representation of everything I never wish to be. Vivaine is a hubristic nut. Morgaine is too desperate for obedience to anything. Morgause is the most boring Slytherin alive, and Lancelet needs a good smack (and I had forgotten that business with his real name being Galahad in this book, which isn't just confusing, but makes for some interesting analysis when compared with more traditional versions of the myth). Anyway... aaaaaargh! Lots of interesting stuff though about appearance and how it correlates to happens to people in the end (and not the obvious thing about Morgaine being small and dark, it's something weirder I've noticed)... I don't want to go on in more detail about it until I've finished it, on the odd chance I'm not remembering something right, but dear me, this book is screwy.

Is there any movie out this weekend I want to see? No. Grrr. Should see I, Robot and The Village, but it's hard to care.