the real troubles in your life are the type the blindside you on some idle tuesday afternoon

[rm]

A series of fucked up things has just occured in my world, making this Sydney financial situation a nightmare.

I am torn between two worldviews on it -- one of which is that it's not my fault because really my company owes me money for all of November, and if that weren't going on, the other drama that has just ensued would in fact be utterly manageable.

My other worldview of course is that it's all my fault, and that I am irresponsible for taking this trip, and that I should cancel it, and loose the non-refundable thousands of dollars I've already spent.

The thing is -- I won't and can't do that. I brazen everyhting out in the end, and I get by, let's face it with a lot of help from my friends. Maybe I am spoiled, and maybe I am stupid, but there it is.

I won't ask people for donations, because the money is all out there theoretically. But I may be working up the nerve to ask people for loans, which invariably means that some of you will unfriend me and think badly of me, and I care about that too, more than I'd like to admit.

There are a number of footnotes to this story, in the realm of the synchronicity factor in my life.

Additionally, someone is trying to convince me of something that's both deeply irrational, and may be the best idea anyone's ever put in front of me. But it involves having balls the size of this entire damn state.

That's as articulate as I can manage right now.

Comments

[coyotegoth.livejournal.com]

If you do wind up needing a hand, just drop a line, and I'll do what I can.

[fleur.livejournal.com]

I went to London with 200 bucks once. You *will* do this trip.

[ladypeculiar.livejournal.com]

It will all work out, and I'll do everything I can financially so you don't have monkeys on your back when you leave, because you can and will take this trip and the Germans can go to hell. I probably won't even see you until Friday night to talk about it all, but the bottom line is don't worry too much.

And no, it's not your fault.

[kathrynrose.livejournal.com]

Hang in there. I have faith. :) If anyone unfriends you, they weren't worth having around.

Also, it's funny that I forget that people on my friends list don't necessarily know each other. sonnlich is in Perth. I'm not sure how far that is from Sydney, but she's a good person and you might want to go visit her LJ and say hi. I've posted a similar message to her about you.

Now I'm going to stop, before people start dancing with baskets of laundry. :)

[askeladden.livejournal.com]

I can certainly help you out with a couple hundred, if it'll make a difference. I know you're good for it.

[elionwyr.livejournal.com]

I wish I could offer you financial help.
If it helps - I believe in you.

to quote hubby...

[graene.livejournal.com]

"You go, girl!"

There is no way you are not going and taking full advantage of this trip and NIDA and all. Life works out for you because you live life right.

[deslea.livejournal.com]

You'll be fine. I'm only a phone call away if you get in a fix while you're here. (Will email details).

[miep.livejournal.com]

hi. i'm here too. *hugs*

people will come out of the woodwork. you'll see.

[tsarina.livejournal.com]

So, how long is it polite to wait before I purchase a hunting license and a snazzy hat? I'm thinking we could do brilliant business with imported rare game on a nice secluded ranch here. The Germanic season has opened! Turkey buzzards unite!

Do you think I could overnight a turkey buzzard to NYC?