short term fixes to a longer term problem

[rm]

- stop being all *grab*grab*grab* must-have-a-new-project-every-month-at-any-cost
- focus on longer-term projects with development concerns -- making Cate's play happen (as it's an incredible showcase for me as an actor), my screenplay
- finally do the website Megan and I have been talking about since forever
- decide to audition for NIDA or not, doing a 2006 audition if I choose to (certainly, my age is a poor excuse not too -- I'm likely to live well into my 90s based on genetics, and I've plenty of time, as long as I never stop doing stuff)
- find a good audition class that isn't all Practical Aesthetics
- stop mocking myself about my directorial curiosity and really do what I need to, to figure out why my most satisfied moment of last nights show was standing in the back of the theater looking at the one scene I'm not on stage for, hands in my pockets and imaging other things/places/times and thinking "I made this".

- stop thinking about how many people I want to think about me how much, and start thinking about what it is I want them to say about me.

- it always seems to come back to a mostly unwritten project of mine (The Magician's Assistant), that I suspect will always remain that way, now that I realize it is the thread, metaphor and answer to nearly everything, not in my nature, but in my story.

Comments

[ladyofthelog.livejournal.com]

You *need* to audition for NIDA.

You'd be so happy there!

[mobobocita.livejournal.com]

Really, what's the harm in auditioning?

[rm.livejournal.com]

Nothing really other than it's several thousand dollars in expenses to do so, especially if I make it to the second round, which is held months later, and almost no one gets in on their first try. Not like I'd mind having more excuses to be in Sydney, but it's a gruelling process especially for someone so removed from the location. Unlike most of the British drama schools, they don't hold auditions stateside.

[mobobocita.livejournal.com]

OK, Several thousand dollars is a reason not to. I can see that. :)

[ladypeculiar.livejournal.com]

You should also look into BADA in London if you're ever interested in studying abroad again . . it's a great program I think you'd be oddly suited for.

[rm.livejournal.com]

When the exchange rate stops fucking the US up the ass. totally.