TO me the story is about the fact that my parents are painters, their marriage is about their creative partnership, and being lonely and utterly outside of that as someone who has no interest in that type of artistic expression, I'm onthis whole thing about the whole work/life artistic thing. It's so obvious, and yet garish and shocking to me.
As to acting, yes, it is what I want to do now later and in general, but the process of getting work is sucking my soul out right now. I'm doing a decent job of meeting the expectations of a fucked up universe, but a terrible job of making the universe the way I want it, no matter how much I'm clearing the hurdles. I'm just really disappointed in myself right now.
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Date: 2005-07-07 03:13 am (UTC)As to acting, yes, it is what I want to do now later and in general, but the process of getting work is sucking my soul out right now. I'm doing a decent job of meeting the expectations of a fucked up universe, but a terrible job of making the universe the way I want it, no matter how much I'm clearing the hurdles. I'm just really disappointed in myself right now.