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[rm]

I just wrote the following to someone in an email about a variety of subjects, and thought it was worth noting here for a number of reasons, not the least of which is its pomposity or that its presentation is peculiarly just a hair outside my current self, for now.

In our youth, which is to say, not our childhood, but that moment between when we realize we have power and when we actually figure out what the hell to do with it, we spend most of our time in acts of clumsy seduction, unconsciously, our minds and our bodies and smiles and gestures -- all that which you would hope would be calculated and remarkably aren't.

It is not a fun time, wishing to be rewarded for who we are, for being clever or young. There are not worlds to conquer in this life, only worlds to build -- it's really just a matter of metaphor. When we realize we have tools, that are inherently personal things, not weapons and defenses, which are inherently public things, it all works out so much the better.

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[ex-mijra932.livejournal.com]

Ah, no--there's no problem with sweeping statements. The hesitation on my part comes in large part from the fact that I have a current obsession with truth, accuracy, and reality. Which makes me want to assume that everyone else does also, which I know is not remotely the case. Which is amusing, on several levels. I should hope your friends are honest enough to overlook the crap and bother to hear what you're saying instead of only how you're saying it.

What did strike me is that you want better for yourself than your reflexes and I don't think enough people feel that way.
An immense compliment that I hardly know what to do with. Biologically, said reflexes belong to hunter-gatherers or some such. Since they're so outdated, how can I trust them? Might as well update. (You think you're out of hand? I'm so tired that...)

That makes so much more sense now. I was wondering where clumsy seduction, among other things, came into it. I'm more inclined to agree with more of what you've said, given that.

[rm.livejournal.com]

One of my biggest problems with clarity is that I define words in ways that are _extremely_ specific and often aren't shared by other people.

Which is to say, I'll explicate on it and the origin of the thought in email. But a lot of has to do with the ways we try to win people over to our side subconsciously and the sexual connotation of the word "seduction" had little to do with it.

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I realize that.