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Mar. 31st, 2003 11:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rmI'm really glad to have made it through class this week. I've been having a bit of an internal crisis about it all week, feeling like it was playing to my strengths too much, doubting myself, my committment, any number of things, that seem to be a part of anyone's internal process when they decide they want to do this.
So I didn't work at all in class today, because I just couldn't -- I'm tired, I'm vulnerable, and I needed to reassess, but I did enjoy the scenes and the exercises people did today, and had a lot of commentary to offer from my audience perspective. There was one particular conversation about rational and irrational thought processes in decision making and whether one had to be sane or charismatic to convince someone of something.
So, I'm back on the bandwagon more or less. Certainly, my work is improving so much. Is this _the_ be all, end all technique for me? Probably not. Is this teaching me how to channel my overly analytical mind into emotional and now finally, physical work? Yes. As ever, there's a need to be patient and gentle with myself that's still a fairly elusive art.
Anyway, working on a scene from Streetcar for next week. Which is sort of bemusing.
Just called my entire cast because the call time for our run before our preview tomorrow got changed, and now I have to deal with stuff for the program as well (literally, the phone just rang as I was typing this).
Oh yeah, and it's snowing.
But what I really, really need to do is cook some dinner.
So I didn't work at all in class today, because I just couldn't -- I'm tired, I'm vulnerable, and I needed to reassess, but I did enjoy the scenes and the exercises people did today, and had a lot of commentary to offer from my audience perspective. There was one particular conversation about rational and irrational thought processes in decision making and whether one had to be sane or charismatic to convince someone of something.
So, I'm back on the bandwagon more or less. Certainly, my work is improving so much. Is this _the_ be all, end all technique for me? Probably not. Is this teaching me how to channel my overly analytical mind into emotional and now finally, physical work? Yes. As ever, there's a need to be patient and gentle with myself that's still a fairly elusive art.
Anyway, working on a scene from Streetcar for next week. Which is sort of bemusing.
Just called my entire cast because the call time for our run before our preview tomorrow got changed, and now I have to deal with stuff for the program as well (literally, the phone just rang as I was typing this).
Oh yeah, and it's snowing.
But what I really, really need to do is cook some dinner.
