tattoo

[rm]

I am planning a new tattoo, that I will probably get in the fall or winter. It's going to be an old-fashioned compass sort of thing, and the idea is that its true north points towards my heart. The symbolism is rooted in the union of a myriad of my seemingly unrelated (but apparently not so) obsessions, and it is, I think, important to me that I be able to touch the thing. For reasons of balance (2 of my 3 current tattoos are on my left side) and symbolism and the fact that when I reach, I reach with my left hand, I want it on the right side of my body. The size will be somewhat dependent on location. The wrist would be very small. If I do get it on my forearm, it'll probably be a bit bigger. Obviously, I'm not going decide where I'm putting a tattoo based on what you all think, but the strength of my reactions to the opinions of others usually helps me clarify what was already in my own mind, hence this exercise. This will be my first new tattoo in about 8 years, and I'm so excited. Among othe things, it encapsulates things I've been looking for a way to encapsulate in a personally coded fashion for years. My other tattoos are largely about "things that have happened to me" which is a very jejune sort of self-marking that I don't regret, but also doesn't conform to the way I choose to exist now, while this one is largely about who I am and the internal whys and wherefores of the things I've dedicated myself to.

P.S. If you choose "somewhere else" please leave a comment as to where.

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Comments

[00goddess.livejournal.com]

Hmm, that's a good point. I just don't think of you as a pregnant person, I guess. You seem more the type to have a pregnant wife :)

[rm.livejournal.com]

Agreed. But since I'm like crazy hormone person lately (OMG I hate 33 SO MUCH), I'm in the throes of planning for every eventuality in the event that that whole preying on young, breeding minded females thing doesn't work out for me. ;)

Man, the amount of shit I have to try to have a sense of humour about later.... *mutters*

[00goddess.livejournal.com]

You just seem much more about a)your own journey and b)facilitating such things in the lives of other people.

Do you think the recent breakup is part of the bioclock thing?

[rm.livejournal.com]

Oh probably. But a lot of it is also being this age, and I think, perhaps more than anything the "healing crisis" thing I wrote about a few days ago. When I was finally better after being sick and scared for months I went through this whole THING about my abortion and kids and so forth and that mental revisiting was all before the other event. So, you know, stuff. Celiac can have very significant effecton fertility, so it's been one of several issues to come top of mind with this situation.

[00goddess.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that makes sense. For me it was leaving my job- suddenly I wasn't keeping myself too busy to deal with the emotions I had been squashing since my childhood.

[rm.livejournal.com]

*nodnodnod*

You know, I know the growth thing never stops, but this whole period from going into acting to the health stuff and its ramifications. I feel like I'm almost caught up n the backlog. It's pretty awesome, but I need a nap.

[graene.livejournal.com]

facilitating such things in the lives of other people.

My mind keeps tripping over this and "well, last time I bled was while staying with her..."

[00goddess.livejournal.com]

It just occurred to me that that impression fits a lot with Anubis- he oversaw embalming and funerals, escorted the dead on the first part of their journey, and weighed their hearts.

Although I am not a devotee of Anubis, I also work on the edges of things, in changes and transitions and uncertain spaces/times. So I understand that vibe. It's a Granny Weatherwax sort of thing.

[rm.livejournal.com]

I didn't know (or don't think I had realized) this until graene posted it. But I remember now, she got her period when she was at my house and was down about it.

And yes. This Anubis thing is very strange and very huge for me, especially today, as my latest round of reading just steered me towards the Hermes connection, which has always been a huge part of my life since I was so small it was little more than liking the way he smiled in drawings in my mythology books when I was six.

[00goddess.livejournal.com]

I didn't have a connection to Hermes as a child; it was only as an adult that I realized the omnipresence of Mercury in my life. I have plans for tattoos to commemorate that.

I am Mercurial, I venerate change and work well with it, there's that bit about edges and transformation and transition, and then there's my role in the lives of others: I am a catalyst for change. Synchronicity with Mercury has been a big part of my adult life.

[graene.livejournal.com]

Oooh, yes, exactly a Granny Weatherwax sort of thing.