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Whale Rider girl is pregnant. Somehow, I don't find this odd.
Man, still tired. Tired to the point of being very impatient and going to bed soon so I can enjoy tomorrow which involves any number of thigns that deeply soothe me including fussy sewing, Hornblower, sushi, and my girl and her boy.
Man, I hurt all over. The fair was excellent. I briefly saw![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sykii and askeladden and hung out with leopard_lady quite a bit and met airspaniel. I communed with dogs -- mostly pugs, because pugs are the bestest and don't freak me out like other dogs do, but also greyhounds because they were dressed like Nazgul horses and that was just the coolest ever. Greyhound rescue. Nazgul rescue. Yay.
I also shouted in public, "I'm sorry, anything that peels paint shouldn't go in my cunt." The origin of that though is someone else's story to tell.
I bought a plain black cloak with a small, dragonish silver clasp. It's the same exact fabric as my Snape coat and so will go with that smashingly as well as be suitable enough (albeit not accurate historically) as outerwear to get to the Regency ball in costume (which is not generally what our group does, but what Kali and I have decided to do). It's totalyl not Snape academic robes, so you'll not be seeing it as inside wear at any con, but I may well swoop into the Draco & the Malfoys gig next week with it over the coat. I am very pleased with this multi-purpose acoutrement.
Then, I had to leave early to go work, which was not deeply annoying but fairly well beyond my capacity by then. Then I came home, ate dinner and did more work. My shoulders hurt. I think I'll book a massage for a few days after the ball. I'll probably well need it.
As I note often, despite my love of the right kind of people, people of any kind exhaust me and it is hard for me to have any sort of expansive social life. I can work myself far past exhaustion with anything I do alone, but with other people it's very hard for me. Some of that is trust issues and shyness and so forth, but some of it is, I know I only have so much energy and a lot of the things that come first for me are either very solitary or very private or both. It is hard, especially this time of year, and especially after six months of things that make me want merely to protect myself, not to become the very dry, ascetic, solitary to the point of invisible creatre I have been at certain points in my life. But I did realize today that here I am with several new acquainceships developing into friendships and a general openness I really didn't think i was capable of. Yes, I'm still cagey as sin, but for me, this is a lot. It's not that I get less tired from it all, it's that I'm learning there are benefits to pushing myself in said arenas as well. One of the things that makes it a little easier for me to be me, and to feel less defensive about my life is that I'm making a real conscious choice lately to call my parents my parents and say that family is something eelse, not because of the generosity of the people I know (although they are) but because of the facts of them.
Man, still tired. Tired to the point of being very impatient and going to bed soon so I can enjoy tomorrow which involves any number of thigns that deeply soothe me including fussy sewing, Hornblower, sushi, and my girl and her boy.
Man, I hurt all over. The fair was excellent. I briefly saw
sykii and askeladden and hung out with leopard_lady quite a bit and met airspaniel. I communed with dogs -- mostly pugs, because pugs are the bestest and don't freak me out like other dogs do, but also greyhounds because they were dressed like Nazgul horses and that was just the coolest ever. Greyhound rescue. Nazgul rescue. Yay.I also shouted in public, "I'm sorry, anything that peels paint shouldn't go in my cunt." The origin of that though is someone else's story to tell.
I bought a plain black cloak with a small, dragonish silver clasp. It's the same exact fabric as my Snape coat and so will go with that smashingly as well as be suitable enough (albeit not accurate historically) as outerwear to get to the Regency ball in costume (which is not generally what our group does, but what Kali and I have decided to do). It's totalyl not Snape academic robes, so you'll not be seeing it as inside wear at any con, but I may well swoop into the Draco & the Malfoys gig next week with it over the coat. I am very pleased with this multi-purpose acoutrement.
Then, I had to leave early to go work, which was not deeply annoying but fairly well beyond my capacity by then. Then I came home, ate dinner and did more work. My shoulders hurt. I think I'll book a massage for a few days after the ball. I'll probably well need it.
As I note often, despite my love of the right kind of people, people of any kind exhaust me and it is hard for me to have any sort of expansive social life. I can work myself far past exhaustion with anything I do alone, but with other people it's very hard for me. Some of that is trust issues and shyness and so forth, but some of it is, I know I only have so much energy and a lot of the things that come first for me are either very solitary or very private or both. It is hard, especially this time of year, and especially after six months of things that make me want merely to protect myself, not to become the very dry, ascetic, solitary to the point of invisible creatre I have been at certain points in my life. But I did realize today that here I am with several new acquainceships developing into friendships and a general openness I really didn't think i was capable of. Yes, I'm still cagey as sin, but for me, this is a lot. It's not that I get less tired from it all, it's that I'm learning there are benefits to pushing myself in said arenas as well. One of the things that makes it a little easier for me to be me, and to feel less defensive about my life is that I'm making a real conscious choice lately to call my parents my parents and say that family is something eelse, not because of the generosity of the people I know (although they are) but because of the facts of them.
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I'm not sure why celeb teens having babies weirds me out more than normal teens having babies, but there you go.
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Most definitely a true and an exceedingly useful statement for both you and for a great many other people I know, myself most definitely included.
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I wish I'd seen that. Greyhounds are My dog of choice, along with Afghans and other hounds of that particular elegance.
What you write above on people, socialising, and friendships speaks strongly to Me, as I feel the same, I am not for everybody, nor is everyman for Me, I prefer solitude and the company of a select trusted few to the draining nature of so many people, and I felt this intensely this past autumn.
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::smile::
I'm very glad we finally got to hang out.
I think it's easy for us to enter a friendship because we are both strange in many similar ways, and thanks to The Beauty of the Blog, we were out to each other in those ways without having to say a thing. We enter into it, not blindly like when you meet a new person totally cold, but with at the very least, a subway map and some landmarks to go by.
It's an interesting feeling.
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Aside, the paint peeling comment needs to go on a t-shirt.