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1. What about yourself do you have absolute unshakeable faith in?
1a. Why?

2. One day you will utter this sentence: "You wouldn't believe what I've done to get here." Where's "here"?
2a. What's the response?
2b. What did you do?

3. What story are you compelled to tell over and over again?
3a. Why?

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[schpahky.livejournal.com]

1. What about yourself do you have absolute unshakeable faith in?
My ability to be alone.

1a. Why?
Because I have so much practice. This is not to say that I like this quality; but it is useful.

2. One day you will utter this sentence: "You wouldn't believe what I've done to get here." Where's "here"?
Self-sufficient, secure, neat, open, focused. I haven't pictured specifics, as I imagine if I've mastered those qualities, the specifics won't matter that much (the when, the where).

2a. What's the response?
"Really?"

2b. What did you do?
Worked my ass off, cut a lot of the bullshit out of my life, gave myself more space to feel and less to think, climbed aboard my intuition and rode it like a wild horse, and learned the fine line between caring about others' needs and making myself disappear.

3. What story are you compelled to tell over and over again?
There are several. My last years of college and the axis of mono/depression; my life of migraines; and, less publicly, how my father held out a steak knife to me when I was 16 and told me to fall on it.

3a. Why?
Because if I can only tell them the right way, the peg will drop through the slot and I won't have to tell them anymore.