rm | today

So after spreading the wealth around in terms of my angst last night and a lot of crying, I feel a lot saner if only because both my mother and grandmother's breast cancer showed up post-menopause, which means I need to stop being like OMG I HAVE TO GET A MAMMOGRAM TOMORROW. Next month will be just fine. Also I was pleased to see that there's a lot of research now into preventive chemo, so the preventive options for someone with the gene (if that turns out to be the situation) are more than all or nothing.

And eventhough my grandmother's cancer killed her, that was the 1970s and things have totally changed since then.

So I think I'm not making all those crazed phone calls today. I think I'm just going to try to be a sane peson who is adjusting to this reality, or else I'm going to be crazed about this for god knows how many months or years!

Also, tomorrow is my mother's birthday.

In other news:

I did, finally, at the last minute, finish the WYNC application and send it in. I think it was pretty good, but we will see. I imagine they will either want to snap me up or I will be ignored in favor of people with a lot of international experience doing hard onsite humanitarian work of the sort that's just never been part of my game plan.

Now I have to go to the dry-cleaner, pick up my fencing stuff and go to work.