rm | seriously?

I have just discovered that my tux, which while fitted/designed here is constructed abroad, is stuck in customs, and while the lovely ladies of Duchess are doing everything they can, with the impending holiday, I think there's a very good chance I may not have it for the cruise.

And if, but some miracle, it can get to me in time, it may be necessary to ship it to my parents house to ensure delivery, which is not, even remotely, an ideal scenario (ETA: just updated my mother on this and she was oddly sanguine and not jumpy as she usually is about my gender stuff because "it's like Ellen (Degeneres)"). Also time for alterations = none, and I'll have to pray it's as perfectly fitted as my other two Duchess suits.

When I found this out earlier I had to laugh for the sheer absurdity of it. And it's certainly one of those things beyond everyone's control.

But seriously? I'm not happy about the prospect of having to choose between the level of formality I'm comfortable with (i.e., formal with my evening gowns -- I was planning to bring two, but now may bring three as I had planned to reserve my suits for the semi-formal nights) and the gender I'm comfortable with (when I don't want to wear women's clothes, I really can't stand to, and it's not always predictable) while on the boat.

I also.... Jesus, I'll have plenty of occasions to wear the thing, so that's no big deal, but how much do I not, for reasons somewhat complicated, want the first time I wear it to be at Gally?

AAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRgh!

2009.

Fucking hell.