Also, Ethan is SUCH a wtf character. His main motivation seems to be boredom or being an irritant and I still can't tell if the way he's written is clever and smart or really craptastic gay stereotyping. But I care. A lot. The whole Ethan/Giles backstory, whatever it may be, interests me the same way the idea of Lucius + team Slytherin during their Hogwarts years interests me.
Also the current Xander/Willow situation? Breaking my heart. I keep wondering to myself if they feel grownup in the misery of their little non-affair.
And Angel's demise (such as it was)? Yes, very CoE, but hard to have an emotional response to when the guy later gets his own series, so you know it's not a permanent death.
Now I'm not going to L.A. for acting (upcoming trip is mostly fun and perhaps vaguely useful on some writerly fronts), but a lot of things going on in my life here in NYC right now is sort of the equivalent of going to L.A., in that they are a Big Deal and I don't know if I'm ready yet and no one really asked me to do these things, I just sort of banged on some doors really loudly and got people to do what I want.
But, you know, what if they think I'm a silly little girl who doesn't know what she really looks or sounds like? Industry people always thing chicks are in this business to be beautiful and then, from there, tell them they can't be in the industry because they are not beautiful in certain right ways. I know what I am.
I'm more than happy to play dying junkie whores, the undead, monsters and about anything else you want to throw at me.
Help me make enough money, and I'll buy the smile you want. But I am tense tense tense for a whole lot of mansplaining about my looks that I am NOT interested in. For those new to here an agent once asked me if I spoke French and when I inquired as to why he said, "in France, you'd actually be attractive."
Also, the correct response to this is not to tell me I'm beautiful. The correct response to this, if you feel impelled, is to tell me I have the force to be paid attention to regardless of the batshittery of this industry and the fact that I happen to have tits.
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Date: 2010-02-15 05:50 pm (UTC)Was waiting for you to get to Band Candy. I need to go look at an index of episodes so I can anticipate some of my other favorite eps. This is like you reading about me watching TW and Dr. Who.
I'm making myself say nothing, which is hard.
I love love love Lafayette. Just sayin.
I'm pretty sure I've already said you're beautiful. Also striking, and if I haven't mentioned, strong, kick-ass, and brilliant.
Thanks for posting the geneology thing. I may do it. Since I found out my dad wasn't my biological father, and since my mom has dementia now and I can't find out the true story, something like this might give me some clue.
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Date: 2010-02-15 10:36 pm (UTC)He is more than his gold lame' pants.