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rmToday was a difficult day. Nothing bad happened, but I started my period and haven't felt great besides and sort of had a delayed emotional reaction to some other stuff and am super tense getting prepped for Dragon*Con and am behind on a lot of stuff, etc. And then I got a small package in the mail from the friend who has somehow convinced me to cosplay Arthur from Inception for a photoshoot at Gallifrey One.
Mainly, I chose Arthur, because, let's face it, I can phone that shit in, and I didn't realize I felt any connection to the character until I received a package from the friend in the mail today. It contained a sealed pack of two dice, never handled, and a note that said, I wanted to gift you with a totem untouched and uniquely yours for Arthur.
I nearly burst into tears. It was exactly what I needed in a week that has seemed unreal often in the worst and yet most mundane possible ways. I haven't opened the dice yet. Won't until I have the Arthur togs on at some point, because the die is his, not mine.
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In other news of the fictional, I spent most of today, like most of the last several days, banging my head against a proposal that I just couldn't make work. I took parts of old things, new things, LJ posts, and I kept almost finding the point and just not getting there.
And then! While in the shower and singing something of fannish significance so absurd I won't even tell you what it was, it hit me! I have a brilliant proposal, already written, not even remotely about death (I love the mourning work but it is exhausting in a way I cannot accurately convey to you) that was rejected from something else a year ago with high and lengthy praise -- it just didn't fit the thrust of the project.
So hey, why not. I liked the idea then, and I like it even better now. And the death project doesn't need to grow another head. If anything, it needs some air to cure and a more aggressive application of focus (as opposed to energy) from me.
So that's done, and sent, and I feel good about that.
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Something else. Can't remember what. Oh yeah! White Collar, Covert Affairs. Happy fan is happy. But I'll talk about those tomorrow.
Mainly, I chose Arthur, because, let's face it, I can phone that shit in, and I didn't realize I felt any connection to the character until I received a package from the friend in the mail today. It contained a sealed pack of two dice, never handled, and a note that said, I wanted to gift you with a totem untouched and uniquely yours for Arthur.
I nearly burst into tears. It was exactly what I needed in a week that has seemed unreal often in the worst and yet most mundane possible ways. I haven't opened the dice yet. Won't until I have the Arthur togs on at some point, because the die is his, not mine.
*
In other news of the fictional, I spent most of today, like most of the last several days, banging my head against a proposal that I just couldn't make work. I took parts of old things, new things, LJ posts, and I kept almost finding the point and just not getting there.
And then! While in the shower and singing something of fannish significance so absurd I won't even tell you what it was, it hit me! I have a brilliant proposal, already written, not even remotely about death (I love the mourning work but it is exhausting in a way I cannot accurately convey to you) that was rejected from something else a year ago with high and lengthy praise -- it just didn't fit the thrust of the project.
So hey, why not. I liked the idea then, and I like it even better now. And the death project doesn't need to grow another head. If anything, it needs some air to cure and a more aggressive application of focus (as opposed to energy) from me.
So that's done, and sent, and I feel good about that.
*
Something else. Can't remember what. Oh yeah! White Collar, Covert Affairs. Happy fan is happy. But I'll talk about those tomorrow.
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Date: 2010-09-01 04:36 am (UTC)Have a great Wednesday, and may it treat you well.