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I cannot believe I thought I was going to try to go to fencing today. I want to start doing three days a week soon (and next week, I'll have 4 or 5 since there's the two day judging workshop), but my schedule hasn't allowed it. This week it's my body. My hamstrings have loathed me since Monday, the Baroque dancing was at least moderately taxing on Saturday, my left hand has been cranky (discovery: it's double jointed and now locks up sometimes in all these weird formations I never knew it could, but I'm sure strength will fix that), and I feel like I have a bruise deep inside my right hip. Barn dancing was great for that as you might imagine. I pushed myself ridiculously hard this week, and, all absurdist impulses aside (this is EXACTLY like when I was like "must go clubbing every night" except this, you know, amtters), I need to just fucking lay off it tonight, especially since next week will be insane.

I had terrible dreams too. Woke up with a start in the middle of the night sure someone was in my room and that I would have t hold my breath a very long time to make sure they wouldn't notice _I_ was in my room. Everything was fine though. Oi. When I have dreams like this I tend to be unnerved for days -- not for the practical reasons of someone breaking into my house would be bad and that's unpleasant to dream about, but because my life has enough spooky in it, for all I know _something_ was in my room last night.

All this aside, I still really, really want to go to fencing tonight though.

believe me, I know this is completely absurd

Since sometime yesterday afternoon, I've been periodically smelling a very specific scent, that lof an oil used in love spells for candle magick. It's a very specific scent and if you were ever fourteen and a big honking idiot like me you probably know it.

This could be any number of things -- a sudden inexplicable shift in my body chemistry with some BPAL I wear all the time, some weird celiac neuro hallucination thing, or another mystery smell floating through New York that will eventually make homeland security news.

Regardless, it's annoying and creepy and weird. And sort of funny, as in funny odd, no funny haha.