briefly

We made only enough progress on the house to sleep in our own bed.

The window guards were horrifically expensive.

Things with my dad are pretty much entirely fucked up right now.

I am experiencing a really bad intersection of anxiety and my heart/neuro stuff that makes it very hard to do anything, although I'm apparently covering well, and it is getting better, but it's HORRIBLE. I just keep telling myself this is normal, this is a first encounter with this sort of thing, it's terrible for anyone, no one is innately equipped to deal with this shit.

Packing for the weekend I found the shirt I use for my Jack cosplay (and, you know, my life). I hadn't been able to find it for weeks and weeks and it was making me crazy, because I smile whenever I see it hanging in the closet. It gave me a little rush of happiness.

I think we were robbed by geeks. Aside from the expensive stuff and Shark Attack 3: Megalodon they took Severus's wand. Buh what?

Found pictures of me at 23, and pictures of Little when she was little in the things upended.

All my pageant crowns were crushed.

This morning, Patty called me into the office. "Honey, why is there a woodpecker pecking our window?"

LJ Idol, week 4

Okay, my week has sucked enough! Please vote for me on LJ Idol if you get a chance.

http://community.livejournal.com/therealljidol/188918.html

This week you can only vote if you are a member of therealljidol community -- but you do not have to play the game to vote, you just have to join the community.

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I am waiting, waiting, waiting for approval on one more thing at work so we can leave already. I had hoped to leave hours ago. Now I'm praying we get to the hotel by 7, which was not, AT ALL, how I planned for this to go.

Patty says it's fine. Even I know it's fine, but I just want something to be... I don't know? Easy? Everything feels like the fucking weight of the world right now. I'm trying to stop it, but it's sort of impossible.

Meanwhile, killing time, but that's hard too -- the GallifreyOne forums are dead because everyone is at The Hub, and you can only read LJ over and over so many times, and I think I'm caught up on any TW fic that I want to read that won't take hours and hours and hours.

This is me whining. It is boring and irritating. To you and I. But it's what I've got.

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