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Pretty tired and noncommunicative right now. Had three auditions today, don't know if anything will come of any of them, but it's damn damn exhausting. I spent more time on the subway today than anything else, and accidentally bought disgusting low-fat guacamole at Whole Foods.

I'm going to go see King Arthur tomorrow, eventhough it looks positively awful and it apparently doesn't even touch the infamous love-triangle, although I'm sure if the film doesn't contain some slashy brilliance somewhere, someone I know can at least make some up. Keira Knightly will have every lady I know surely painting herself with weird blue patterns come Halloween though, so it'll be good for something at least.

I'm struggling with a lot of stuff right now... mostly the grind of what is often fantastic, but also often a pain in the ass. Among other things Counsellor allowed me to become a more informed performer, in terms of what I'm good at, what I need to work on, what the industry is like, what potentials I have _right now_ and so forth, and it's made me self-conscious in a way that has inadvertantly rocked my confidence, and it's showing in auditions right now. It's not something I'm happy about, although I suspect it's one of those normal developmental phases as far as these things go. There are stakes now, where there weren't before, at least in my head.