don't let it bring you down

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I feel like my performance last night was resoundingly mediocre. Whether this is true I've no idea, and I'm not really sure anyone in the audience could say either, as it's such an odd play, with so much intentional bad acting... well it worked, and that's all good, and tonight will be better.

I now have three auditions for paid gigs on Monday, one for a film (they just called me and woke me up before I was ready to face the world). This is all good in a I am doing the work I am supposed to be doing to do what I want to be doing -- but I'm PMSy and everything is tending to seem anticlimatic or impossible right now. Anyway the three things are in quick succession all of town -- an appointment at 10:30 on the UES, an appoitment near Lincoln Center at 12:30 and an open call in Times Square from 12:30 - 4:30 which hopefully I'll get to early enough to actually get in to get seen. Should be, but depends on how many people show up.

Part of my current problem is my voice is particularly bothering me right now -- there isn't a thing sitting in it again, but the bad school play singing thing definitely has it back in old uncomfortable habits for the moment. This combined with the solving the voice thing being more important to me of a spastic sudden... unfun.

Backstage this week has a piece on the importance of having a dream role, which isn't the form my ambitions have generally taken until exceedingly recently. Backstage's happy encouraging cheeriness on the subject is nice and good, but I've yet to hear anyone extoll the virtues of lying awake at night thinking foolish things.

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[frawst.livejournal.com]

I've never really had a dream role, and I seem to sleep well at night.

I mean sure I'd dig on playing of the Big Shakespeare roles...but work is work is work...

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[museplay.livejournal.com]

I never know when I've done well. In my case it's usually about a poetry reading instead of acting. But the vantage point is that same. It's difficult to see yourself. And sadly, asking for feedback has to be done with an intelligent selectivity. Ootherwise you get distracting comments; good and bad. Or so goes my experience.

This is also to say, hello. Truth is, I've been lurking around your journal. I've found it full of excellent writing and a wonderful spirit. So, I added you.