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Someone was mean to me about being sick today. I was talking about it at something, and this person who is always going on and on and on about her own equally if not more trivial medical problems and is generally just rude snapped at me, "You know you're not the only one who has ever had this problem."
They're right of course. But the tone was revolting, and I think I've been relatively not self-absorbed (or at least not all "I'm more sick than you are"). I was so angry. But I bit my lip. Because had I said a word, about her hateful, complaining, selfish and disruptive personality I would have ripped her to shreds. She's not someone I like, but I felt really wounded. LIke, god-forbid I should mention it (and it came up because of something that I had to talk about logistically in this group). Am I just supposed to start opting out of things and never tell anyone why because it's so fucking horrible of me to claim my problems matter? Selfish fucking bint. I am righteously angry.
Someone was mean to me about being sick today. I was talking about it at something, and this person who is always going on and on and on about her own equally if not more trivial medical problems and is generally just rude snapped at me, "You know you're not the only one who has ever had this problem."
They're right of course. But the tone was revolting, and I think I've been relatively not self-absorbed (or at least not all "I'm more sick than you are"). I was so angry. But I bit my lip. Because had I said a word, about her hateful, complaining, selfish and disruptive personality I would have ripped her to shreds. She's not someone I like, but I felt really wounded. LIke, god-forbid I should mention it (and it came up because of something that I had to talk about logistically in this group). Am I just supposed to start opting out of things and never tell anyone why because it's so fucking horrible of me to claim my problems matter? Selfish fucking bint. I am righteously angry.
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Date: 2006-06-05 03:25 am (UTC)I was reading, unrelated to anything, really, about Padre Pio last night, because I was in too much pain to do anything except click around on wikipedia. People accused him of faking the stigmata for attention, but he wrote in private letters to his spiritual advisor pleading for help convincing God to make the marks disappear -- he didn't mind the pain and the suffering, because he wanted to share Jesus' pain, but he hated the visible symbols of it because he found it humiliating the way people obsessed about it. He wanted to be able to suffer in silence.
I'm certainly not saintly in my suffering, but I did emphathize with that. The pain is enough to deal with without people making a big deal out of it and accusing you of histrionics.
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