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One more greivance -- Kinkos -- no explanation necessary.

Amazingly, the Descensus object is done, so tonight I'll scan it in and then post it tomorrow after it's been delivered. I really thought I'd be finishing this at 4am.

I don't often talk about the whole "fanfic vs. profic" or "realfic" thing, but I want to take a moment to talk about it now, because of the amount of time I spend on this stuff and because of how into the object creation and found-object aspect of universe creation for Descensus in particular, but anything I'm working on in general.

I make stuff. People like it. In a big way, that's really it. Some stuff supports me financially (a story sold, work on a film, etc.), some stuff supports me emotionally (fanfic is a huge example of this -- yes, I do it because it's fun and mischievous and hot and interesting to me, but I have also seriously, seriously learned crap about myself in the process). Some stuff matters to like 1 or 2 people, when I'm lucky some stuff matters to more. Different things are more or less useful to certain particular goals of mine, but at the end of the day I don't view any of it as any more or less valuable, creative or noble than the rest of it. I make stuff. *shrug*

That said, hell is -- assembling a book on pureblood wizarding marriage traditions and connubial relationships in a Kinkos with _one_ working copier and a lot of angry people waiting online behind you.

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Recentlhy, I've had an internal struggle about writing fan fic. I love it - it feeds me like nothing else, but sometimes I feel as though I need to concentrate only on my original works, as that is what will pay the bills. However, I need to write fan fic - I am literally not grounded when I am not writing it. My mind seems to be the most content when I am writing and plotting my fics. It is the same with my original stuff, but it is a bit different because I know the rewards of my labor are not going to be coming anytime soon.