night shift thoughts
Jan. 27th, 2007 10:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rmIf you ever want to feel outside the world and see how you feel about that, work overnight on a Saturday. And not in a job that in some way is about the life of Saturday night -- i.e., at a bar or in a show or in sex work, but in something mundane and unknown. I just ran to Whole Foods before it closed so I would only have to do laundry tomorrow and brought my groceries to the office.
I also stopped in Max Brenner. Max Brenner is a mass of contradictions to me. Their chcolate beverages are as fine as you'll find; they taste the way you expect hot chocolate to in books where it is named slightly differently -- that is, the chocolat of Swordspoint or His Dark Materials. It's that good; that alchemical, and if you prefer the dark, that utterly unsweet, which is really the key.
On the other hand, the place's atmosphere is eh, meant to evoke some vague Parisian fantasy to the laziest and least curious among us. And then there's the conceit of their ceramics that come with directions about how you have to hug the cup and feel nuturing.
That said, Max Brenner is an Australia thing, so I feel warmly towards it even when I want to kill everyone in my way in there (it's always crowded with people who, despite being justled by other people in said crowd, are in fact incapable of actually realizing other beings exist in this world. I am certain they are wondering why they are being jostled by invisible forces). Also, the music selection is lame and cheesy. I expect better from Australia. Cheesetastic at a minimum!
Anyway, I indulged an old habit of providing a different name every time I order someplace where one needs to do that and then wait for the product at another counter. It was fun.
Walking up to work, I saw a fellow I often see in Union Square, a black man with long greying dreads and fabulous clothes. Often he wears a tattered tailcoat and bowtie; We often smile at each other, evidences perhaps that we each believe in a certain inevitable return to formality after whatever fictional apocalypses we've been busily reading about of late. He was less dressed up today, and with a gorgeous woman I've seen him with before, although she looked a bit annoyed with him.
And he made me think of D. It's that time of year I suppose. D's suicide was, if I remember right, centered around Valentine's Day. We weren't close, but I still miss him. And I'm still pissed at him. He's one of a very few handful of people I've ever known who decided his fictional world was truth and lived accordingly and beautifully. I guess it didn't really work out for him. And that makes me sad, not just for him, or for me, but for everyone. D. knew, as I said to someone in email earlier about something/someone else entirely, that something could be both a pose and utterly sincere. Fucker. Sometimes I wonder if he's at peace. And sometimes, I wonder if he's bored.
I also stopped in Max Brenner. Max Brenner is a mass of contradictions to me. Their chcolate beverages are as fine as you'll find; they taste the way you expect hot chocolate to in books where it is named slightly differently -- that is, the chocolat of Swordspoint or His Dark Materials. It's that good; that alchemical, and if you prefer the dark, that utterly unsweet, which is really the key.
On the other hand, the place's atmosphere is eh, meant to evoke some vague Parisian fantasy to the laziest and least curious among us. And then there's the conceit of their ceramics that come with directions about how you have to hug the cup and feel nuturing.
Dear Max Brenner,
I am drinking your chocolate expressly to fuel my world domination fantasies. I nuture elsewhere. And I'm not here because it's almost February.
That said, Max Brenner is an Australia thing, so I feel warmly towards it even when I want to kill everyone in my way in there (it's always crowded with people who, despite being justled by other people in said crowd, are in fact incapable of actually realizing other beings exist in this world. I am certain they are wondering why they are being jostled by invisible forces). Also, the music selection is lame and cheesy. I expect better from Australia. Cheesetastic at a minimum!
Anyway, I indulged an old habit of providing a different name every time I order someplace where one needs to do that and then wait for the product at another counter. It was fun.
Walking up to work, I saw a fellow I often see in Union Square, a black man with long greying dreads and fabulous clothes. Often he wears a tattered tailcoat and bowtie; We often smile at each other, evidences perhaps that we each believe in a certain inevitable return to formality after whatever fictional apocalypses we've been busily reading about of late. He was less dressed up today, and with a gorgeous woman I've seen him with before, although she looked a bit annoyed with him.
And he made me think of D. It's that time of year I suppose. D's suicide was, if I remember right, centered around Valentine's Day. We weren't close, but I still miss him. And I'm still pissed at him. He's one of a very few handful of people I've ever known who decided his fictional world was truth and lived accordingly and beautifully. I guess it didn't really work out for him. And that makes me sad, not just for him, or for me, but for everyone. D. knew, as I said to someone in email earlier about something/someone else entirely, that something could be both a pose and utterly sincere. Fucker. Sometimes I wonder if he's at peace. And sometimes, I wonder if he's bored.
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Date: 2007-01-28 03:52 am (UTC)At first it became a high holy day for most of the people we used to associate with, but then as you would expect it soon became a war of the roses over who was having the " Official " memorial / party, and life goes on as is always does.
considering the number of people who have claimed to have ' seen ' him , or felt his influence since then I seriously doubt he is bored -I think he is having as much mischievous fun as he can possibly have.
Me personally, I have a memorial web site with the letter I wrote when I found out. That's about it. I don't generally celebrate Valentines day anyway - and now I have even more reason not to.
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Date: 2007-01-28 04:10 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-28 04:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-28 04:44 am (UTC)I've always been sorry I never got to meet D.
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Date: 2007-01-28 12:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-28 01:26 pm (UTC)I actually went by there not too long ago and thought it looked a little painfully Cool, so I avoided. I'm glad to know the chocolate is worth it.
I don't know why it never occurs to me to use a less ambiguous name when I order things. I'm sure it would make getting a drink in public less nerve-wracking.
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Date: 2007-01-28 08:41 pm (UTC)When I was in college, I used Molly a lot.
"Like Ringwald?" someone asked once.
"No, like Millions, jackass."
I don't often miss being 19, but that's one of those things that does it.
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Date: 2007-01-28 07:43 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-28 07:44 am (UTC)Or, if you're feeling a bit the Duchess, the thick Italian chocolat.
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Date: 2007-01-28 07:45 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-01-28 02:09 pm (UTC)Accordingly, beautifully, and consistently. And the fucker died owing me several dances and conversations.... Still, if there's another life, we'll catch up with each other.