emo, but true
Mar. 24th, 2008 11:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rmI have come to the unfortunate conclusion that I am not ambitious because I'm ambitious, but because I'm afraid if I fail no one will love me.
My ambition has gotten very big in the last few years, and I've done very well with it, but I've had a hard couple of weeks, and I'm not in the best state.
Patty, however, aside from being kind, helpful, reasonable, good, and all teh stuff I don't talk to you all about, FOUND MY MISSING PASSPORT.
That's one huge nightmare off my plate.
Seriously though, you can never be too old to have a "guess I'm not the person I thought I was" moment, but it's so damn taxing.
My ambition has gotten very big in the last few years, and I've done very well with it, but I've had a hard couple of weeks, and I'm not in the best state.
Patty, however, aside from being kind, helpful, reasonable, good, and all teh stuff I don't talk to you all about, FOUND MY MISSING PASSPORT.
That's one huge nightmare off my plate.
Seriously though, you can never be too old to have a "guess I'm not the person I thought I was" moment, but it's so damn taxing.
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Date: 2008-03-25 07:20 pm (UTC)My adult life is full of "guess I'm not the person I thought I was".
This summer is going to be a slingshot of "guess I'm not the person THEY thought I was" which I'm fairly certain will result in failing on some degree and they will all stop loving me. Bah.
But better to try and risk than not ever be truly loved.