emo, but true

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I have come to the unfortunate conclusion that I am not ambitious because I'm ambitious, but because I'm afraid if I fail no one will love me.

My ambition has gotten very big in the last few years, and I've done very well with it, but I've had a hard couple of weeks, and I'm not in the best state.

Patty, however, aside from being kind, helpful, reasonable, good, and all teh stuff I don't talk to you all about, FOUND MY MISSING PASSPORT.

That's one huge nightmare off my plate.

Seriously though, you can never be too old to have a "guess I'm not the person I thought I was" moment, but it's so damn taxing.

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One of the things I've always admired about you was how defiant you are. If you were as dependent on the affection and support of other people as much as you claim, then I can't see how that defiance would have grown to the point that it did.