small success/big failure

[rm]

1. I got invited to be on a panel at San Diego Comic Con. In the world of what I do, I think this is a big deal, but logistically it may not be feasible.

2. I was rejected from graduate school. Perhaps my senteces were too long, my life too ridiculous, my elitism too distasteful or perhaps the fact that I am good at and successful at several things made them decide I am a dilletante. Although I am supposed to consider the possibility that my work just sucks, I'm actually rather certain it doesn't.


Good things about not getting into grad school:
- my fencing training faces no interruption (this is actually really important and serious, and may now be how I can broach aspects of this topic with the Maestri).
- I do not need to make yet more money appear out of nowhere
- no further opportunity to be embittered by beaurocracy
- more Patty time
- can still hold teas as demure faculty wife



Bad things about not getting into grad school:
- Severus Snape hates me (oh god, it took that bit of black humour to make me cry? for real?)
- I can't teach
- Confirmation that my friends are smarter than me
- Confirmation that my go go party life-style when I was 17 WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER
- Confirmation that all the horrible things people say about me are true (well, not really, but that's part of the grieving process)
- The letter really could have waited until Patty got home


Also the letter reminding me that admissions are extremely copetitive, as if that's supposed to make me feel better or remind me that I may have perhaps shot too high? Sorry, no. I get my name in the credits of a feature film this year. My second book will be published this year. I know extremely competitive, and no matter how competitive Hunter is, puh-lease.

But! I have stuff to do, literally, no time to react to this now, which is good, as there will be no repeat of the Great Fashion Show breakdown.

Comments

[wordkink.livejournal.com]

This may seem pithy, but I have to say that what caught my eye first was your being invited to comicon. Hardly news worthy today maybe, but if you DO decide that you're coming out this way I know that it would be an -excellent- excuse for both Ranalore and myself to convince your darling Patty to come with you. These things are said out of purely selfish motivations, of course, but also this is a fantastic city and Destination City, and really, really, who doesn't love ocean and stupid-lots of culture, etc?

You may now ignore my inappropriate looking at the bright side of things. Though, ugh, the grad school situation is lame-- you could still get a glorious SoCal vacation! :D

[rm.livejournal.com]

No, I am very glad someone mentioned it! It is a big deal, I think. I believe the con is at the exact same moment Patty returns from Syria, which is one of my issues of hesitation (the other is someone other than me needs to pay for it) as I don't want to have to wait more days to see her after she is back home.

[wordkink.livejournal.com]

Well, if you think that there's any way to wait a day or two and bring Patty with you, I'm sure that those of us here in SD could help you guys find some free lodgings *G* We do love any excuse to show off our awesome city to people. Besides, I've been trying to talk Patty into a visit for -ages-.

Though, knowing how I feel about my own girl, I can completely, 100%, understand not wanting to miss a day of being with your own.

[rm.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm going to talk to her about it when she gets home, so we'll see. I've wanted to show her California for ages, and we keep talking about how much we need a non-working vacation too, so maybe that's a possibility at some point as well.

[wordkink.livejournal.com]

I firmly believe that California vacations are an important part of good mental health. San Diego, obviously being on of the neatest parts of the state, is also a winner. So, yes, non-working vacation thoroughly approved from this end! :D