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[rm]

http://community.livejournal.com/tw_flashfic/27497.html

This fucking broke me.

Also, I am not someone who particularly frets about growing old (perhaps because everyone tells me I look at least ten years younger than I am and I don't really have the crappy obligations of most people my age), but this put a fear and a sorrow into me I didn't know was lurking about. Woah.

It's been a long time since I read a fic that's forced me to go out and take a walk around the block.

Comments

[heron61.livejournal.com]

This fucking broke me.

Yes.

I am not someone who particularly frets about growing old (perhaps because everyone tells me I look at least ten years younger than I am and I don't really have the crappy obligations of most people my age), but this put a fear and a sorrow into me I didn't know was lurking about.

I know frighteningly well precisely what you mean - perhaps in part because of a similar reason, since we both have partners significantly younger than us.

[rm.livejournal.com]

since we both have partners significantly younger than us.

Well, yes, but which one of them were you scared of being when when you read it?

[heron61.livejournal.com]

Both, definitely both. I know which one I'd choose to be, but it would still be exceptionally hard.

I already look at a couple of friends my own age and how they already look and seem considerably older than me. I have strong suspicions about the combination of advancing medicine and my own impressive luck, but much less faith others will be quite so lucky.

[rm.livejournal.com]

My mother finally looks her age now that she is in her early-60s, but it took breast cancer to do that. She also drinks and smokes and doesn't work out. I apparently suffer from accidentally clean living.

[feyandstrange.livejournal.com]

It's less to do with age, and more to do with leaving, for me. It's the knowledge that someday lovers die.

[rm.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I think I've also had a hard year. I spend ten minutes every day trying not to make a post about this feeling of "when I get cancer" people keep telling me it's If, but I've yet to be convinced It's been dreadful.

[feyandstrange.livejournal.com]

Every so often something reminds me that they have no idea if my condition is fatal or not, and there's next to nothing I can do about it.

And for me, it seems more like a year of watching other people fight things like cancer, and it's much easier in some ways to face my own dying than having to watch someone I love failing.

And it's Kai's 40th on Tuesday, and I'm taking him out to do something crazy and there is a nonzero chance of dying.

God we're a cheerful lot tonight.

[phaenix-ash.livejournal.com]

now you know i don't read a lot of fanfic but...

between this and the dr. who crossover episodes (which i only watched this week) i'm completely hooked into this fandom like i never was with HP. i've got the first disc of TW season one here and am just about to throw it in the dvd player...after that i have a feeling there will be no going back. ;)

[rm.livejournal.com]

There will be no going back. It takes a while for the characters to emerge, and it's tempting not to pay attention to all teh tiny details because none of them seem to make sense at first, but if you're patient with it, it's very rich stuff. I'm so excited. There's a lot of beauty in it, often overlooked in the pretty and the trashy of it.