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[rm]

http://community.livejournal.com/tw_flashfic/27497.html

This fucking broke me.

Also, I am not someone who particularly frets about growing old (perhaps because everyone tells me I look at least ten years younger than I am and I don't really have the crappy obligations of most people my age), but this put a fear and a sorrow into me I didn't know was lurking about. Woah.

It's been a long time since I read a fic that's forced me to go out and take a walk around the block.

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[feyandstrange.livejournal.com]

It's less to do with age, and more to do with leaving, for me. It's the knowledge that someday lovers die.

[rm.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I think I've also had a hard year. I spend ten minutes every day trying not to make a post about this feeling of "when I get cancer" people keep telling me it's If, but I've yet to be convinced It's been dreadful.

[feyandstrange.livejournal.com]

Every so often something reminds me that they have no idea if my condition is fatal or not, and there's next to nothing I can do about it.

And for me, it seems more like a year of watching other people fight things like cancer, and it's much easier in some ways to face my own dying than having to watch someone I love failing.

And it's Kai's 40th on Tuesday, and I'm taking him out to do something crazy and there is a nonzero chance of dying.

God we're a cheerful lot tonight.