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May. 28th, 2003 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rmI tend to like to reduce things to make a point and it occured to me on the subway the other day in examining the point of intersection of an odd number of my accutely varied interests, that in the spirit of this, everyone has one sentence they are waiting and yearning to hear. And in this waiting and yearning, they mistake all sorts of other things for it.
For me, it's "I want to build an empire with you" and what I've actually responded to, more than I'd ever like to admit are variants of "I want you to build an empire with me" and "I want you to help me build an empire" -- subtle differences that chaffed at me absurdly and served me not at all. This leads tangentally to something I don't care to get into today, which is that in my past I have often chosen and sought restriction because the ache of wanting was too much. Obviously, I don't exactly choose that path anymore.
Those who know the who and the how of some of my past relationships, particularly those of my early and mid-twenties, will nod and giggle. Actually, it's nod and giggle worthy regardless.
But tell me, what is the sentence you are waiting to hear? And what do you respond to quite foolishly in the process of listening too hard?
For me, it's "I want to build an empire with you" and what I've actually responded to, more than I'd ever like to admit are variants of "I want you to build an empire with me" and "I want you to help me build an empire" -- subtle differences that chaffed at me absurdly and served me not at all. This leads tangentally to something I don't care to get into today, which is that in my past I have often chosen and sought restriction because the ache of wanting was too much. Obviously, I don't exactly choose that path anymore.
Those who know the who and the how of some of my past relationships, particularly those of my early and mid-twenties, will nod and giggle. Actually, it's nod and giggle worthy regardless.
But tell me, what is the sentence you are waiting to hear? And what do you respond to quite foolishly in the process of listening too hard?
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Date: 2003-05-28 09:21 pm (UTC)This will say a great deal about my shit -- small, as if implying more metaphor than action. But [insert random hand gesture here] I am precise about language in a way utterly peculiar unto myself that makes translating my interpersonal desires and understanding those of others, rather challenging.
As to your stuff about NYC -- makes perfect sense to me. This is a place that respects the struggle, and is good to those for it.